Update 3/7/05

I called the Dr. in the morning right away and was able to speak to a nurse. I asked her some questions and after talking a while told her I wasn’t sure his cough was any better. So she made an appointment at 4:15 for us and told me to call if it got worse. He actually got better throughout the day but I still felt I should bring him in. He was still wheezing a lot so even though I felt like he was getting better I figured I should still keep the appointment.

The Dr. listened to his lungs and said that he’s still having difficulty breathing but they are better. I am suppose to use the breathing machine less often and that he should be much better by the end of the week – yippee another week trapped in the house! hehe

We looked at Kian’s weight per my request and he’s back down to 15lbs. 15 ounces :( He was at 16lbs. 4 ounces on Friday when I brought him in. I have been feeding him things slowly and over giving him breaks so that the gag reflex doesn’t happen. The Dr.’s nurse said they gag when they are congested. Right now all he seems to want for sure is Yo-Baby…at least that has a lot of calories in it!

So, that’s the word around here for now. Thanks for all your well wishes and prayers! Kian certainly needs them and so do I lol!

Kian's a little Trooper

Kian had a rough weekend (and so did Jamie and I). Kian still isn’t feeling well. The breathing treatments I have been giving him don’t seem to be working anymore and he has had a slight temperature (99.5) since Friday night. We also purchased a new humidifier that really works (the cheapo one we got at Walmart never really worked so we thought it was time to get a good one – I had a coupon too). I can tell that the room is humidified when I walk in his room. He also hasn’t been eating well. This morning he threw up his cereal while I was feeding it to him. He did eat a container of Yo-Baby Yogurt. For lunch he had 1 ½ jars of baby food. And dinner he threw up an entire jar of chicken and sweet potato (his favorite) after eating it and being very hungry. I got out more some yogurt and he ate a little of it…maybe a half container. He did take a sippy cup throughout the day with whole milk in it. But I have a feeling he has lost some weight – I just hope not too much.

Dr. Araya (the Dr. that works in Bravo’s office and is there on Fridays and other days to fill in) said that Kian should be much better within two days of taking the antibiotic. It has been two days now and he still has rattling in his chest and now won’t eat much. I will be calling Dr. Bravo’s office in the morning and hopefully I can get in – Monday’s are pretty busy and usually it’s hard to get someone on the phone.

Please keep Kian in your prayers. He’s been such a trooper. He takes his breathing treatments well. He doesn’t like sitting on my lap for that long of a period of time but he endures it. And from time to time we see the old, happy, loves to play Kian. At other times he just crashes and falls asleep with no aid at all (I usually have to swaddle him and rock him).

Kian is sick yet again :(

Kian has bronchitis or a bronchial infection :( I took him to see the Ped today because I thought he had an ear infection again. His ears are fine but he was wheezing and coughing all day long yesterday and today it was getting worse. He got a breathing treatment in the office which worked until we got home (I am going to call there as soon as they are back from lunch).

It's unreal how easily Kian gets sick. We can't leave him in the church nursery and I am afraid to even use the cry room as most parents that have kids that are sick and can't take them to the nursery come to the cry room! There are newborns in there (that rant is for another day! hehe) Anyway, people LOVE to touch Kian when we are in public which is hard to avoid but it does make we wonder if this is where he got it from. I guess since Kian isn't a normal kid and gets sick so easily and looses weight because of it I need to be checking with everyone to make sure no one even has a sniffle because it sets him back :( It's so frustrating because he was just getting on a good swing of gaining weight well.

From what the Dr. says, he should be better in a few days. I hope that’s a case. Please send your thoughts and prayers our way as we need them. Thanks!

Later on....
Now Kian needs breathing treatments at home! I called the Ped at about 1:30 and told them he was still wheezing and they didn't call back until about 4ish and told me to come and pick one of the nurses' up (she LOVES Kian and he loves her - she weighs him every week) because something was up with my insurance and I might not be able to get one until Saturday or Monday. I went to get it. They gave me a few of the meds for the treatments and then I get home and have a message from this guy who was called to get us the nebulizer that has been working like a crazy man trying to find a place that will take my insurance for the machine and what not. I called the Ped to find out if I needed to buy one anyway and they said yes and talked to them about the meds as we will have to pay full price for it because our insurance won't cover it (at least until our deductible is met). PHEW! I was on the phone for an hour and Kian was past due for a nap and whinning in my ear. But all was worked out - the script was called into the pharmacy (both a generic one and the one that we would pay full price for) and a nebulizer is on it's way to my door at any moment.

BAH! I have not had a shower today and barely ate anything at all (not like I don't have fat to burn though LOL) When DH comes home I will be having his "cooking" which is chinese take out and a big, fat glass of Bailey's! LOL What a day! lol

Update, Anniversary and Milestones

Update on Kian

Kian gained 13 ounces from last week! Last week I didn't get a chance to feed him lunch before we had to weigh him and he was down 2 ounces...I wasn't worried as the amount of food he would have had in his tummy would have been a 6 ounce gain. Dr. Bravo thinks he's doing well but we are going to go ahead with testing on March 9th. I'm not exactly sure what they will do - I am guessing a blood draw and I think they said they will do it in the office. Hopefully Kian's favorite nurse, Stacy, can do it (she’s a Packers fan too :)

Our Third Wedding Anniversary (February 23rd)

Unfortunately I have felt kind of sick since Monday (the day we decided to celebrate since our anniversary was on Wednesday). We had dinner brought in from Tahoe Joe’s – a great steak house here in SLO. It wasn’t much of an anniversary but I did have Jamie home with me since he was off for President’s Day on Monday which made that nice :)

Milestones

Kian started to sit from crawling (which he still mainly does backwards) and pull up to standing all on Monday! Needless to say he didn’t sleep well on Monday night (from all the new stuff he was doing). But he’s back on track with sleeping through the night. He’s also sleeping in his crib! We are so excited to have our room back to ourselves! Now we just need to work on naps once he gets this all down over the next few weeks.

Kian also is starting to crawl forwards but he does a strange little scoot where he puts one leg out to help him get across the room! hehe

Dr. Phil

Thank God for TiVo! I am able to watch shows that I want to watch when I can watch them. One of those shows is Dr. Phil. I am not sure if anyone has watched it over the last few days or not but it was about a family who thinks their 19-year-old son is a sexual predator. Here is a link to the show: http://www.drphil.com/show/show.jhtml?contentId=3210_polygraph.xml
The family thought that he might be abusing their 4-year-old daughter. He denied doing any such thing at all to her or to anyone else. After taking a polygraph test it was revealed that he did sexually molest his sister and other girls he came into contact – girls not women. He finally admitted he did it (he actually said that he thought he passed the poly - unbelievable) but I question if he really is sorry he did it or sorry he got caught. He has molested several young girls that his family knows of, he’s a pathological liar, looks at porn and calls the 1-900 numbers. I have seen these same signs in some other cases I know of with sexual predators…scary how they have a pattern.

There has been some discussion on one of my May Mommy boards about this show. Some ladies feel bad for the kid. Others were victims of abuse and applaud Dr. Phil’s work. For me, I am glad that this subject was brought out into the open. At least it’s now known what this man did to his sister and now she can be protected. I guess it goes to show that these people can do hurtful and sick things to someone they love and are close to. I am thankful that I have never been in contact with any such person and I pray that Kian will never encounter anyone of this nature either.

Kian gained weight!

Kian gained 6 ounces this week! He weights 15-7 (which is below the 5% for weight). This is the first weight we have had since he has been on whole milk and having Yo Baby yogurt as well. It was great to see the gain :)

Kian was also tested for anemia – I guess they do this test for all babies that are 9 months of age and his iron was very low so is on an Iron supplement again. They suggested Fer-in-Sol but we already had some of a different brand at home that they said would work. We were giving him the iron supplement after he got out of the hospital.

We also talked to the Dr. about having tests done anyway for CF and growth hormone deficiency and he actually said he was going to suggest it anyway. He wants to do it in March because they get more accurate tests in older babies plus he wants him to have more weight on him and he suspects he will be close to 16lbs by next week!

They are going to test for CF here in town. I guess they are going to do a DNA test first and then if CF shows up they will do a sweat test. The Dr. doesn’t think he has it but feels we need to rule it out as a possibility.

Anyway, that’s what is happening here with us! Kian’s a little cranky now…not sure if it’s from the shot and the toe prick he had today…he usually doesn’t cry unless there is something wrong. Right now in his Jumperoo having a grand time hehe

Sleeping through the night and waiting for weight check

KIAN SLEPT THROUGH THE NIGHT FRIDAY NIGHT!

That was the first time ever! I didn’t get much sleep as I am used to him waking up and needing me so I was worried about him breathing and stuff hehe He has been waking up and putting himself back to sleep lately too. It’s been SO nice that we don’t have to go in to comfort him! Not to mention, he’s showing me that he doesn’t need me to feed him in the middle of the night now. I am wondering if it’s because he’s getting more calories from the whole milk and Yo Baby Yogurt that I have been giving him. (Yo Baby is made with whole milk and is organic). Whatever it is I am just happy that he’s doing much better at night and hopefully I will be able to get some sleep soon too :)

Weight….waiting and wondering…

I am really curious as to what Kian weighs now after being on whole milk. I sure hope it’s made a difference! He doesn't take much from a sippy cup but I knew he probably wouldn't seeing that he won't take much of my milk in it either. I am continuing to breastfeed but a lot of times I don't have anything to give him so I offer him the sippy with whole milk. I can’t believe the weight that has been taken off of my shoulders with the introduction on whole milk! I am not as stressed as I used to be because I know that if I don’t have enough to give him there is another source that he will accept and his belly is ok with. Even so, Kian does get a good meal of breast milk in the morning (seeing he’s pretty much cut out eating at night) and he gets at least another good one sometime during the day…usually after he wakes up from his afternoon nap.

Weight Check and Mom's Thoughts

Weekly Weight Check and Appointment with Dr. Bravo

Well, yesterday I started to really lose my milk. Kian is not getting enough to eat breast milk wise and we weren’t able to get in to see Dr. Bravo until today. Kian HATES formula and has gagged on it when I have tried to give it to him – he is known to vomit things out of his mouth and everything else follows afterwards. So, Dr. Bravo told us to start him on whole milk early – I know they used to put babies on whole milk earlier than one year but studies have shown that babies can have milk allergies so they prolonged putting babies on milk to at least a year old. Kian did take some whole milk from a bottle today – not much be he did take some. I am just praying that he takes well to having it in a bottle or sippy cup because I have a feeling I won’t have much left to give him in a while.

Kian’s weight today was 15lbs. 1 ounce. So he only gained an ounce from last week. Dr. Bravo said that since he’s more mobile (he’s scooting around but backward) he is burning more calories. He said that I just need to feed him high calorie foods like avocados and things like that. Kian actually ate a whole avocado with dinner tonight! I was so proud of him! Dr. Bravo also said that he wants Kian to gain a pound a month and to be 3lbs. more by the time he’s a year old. He talked once again about doing tests at that point for CF (cystic fibrosis) and for growth hormone deficiency.

We will go in next week for Kian’s immunizations and Jamie and I plan to ask if we can just go ahead with the tests just to give us peace of mind or be able to start treatment right away.

Some Thoughts from Mom…

When I was pregnant I never thought that anything would go wrong – even that having a c-section would happen. I certainly never thought that anything could be wrong with my child. This year has been a tough one. Starting with Kian’s birth being rough, me almost dieing afterwards, then on to breastfeeding issues, weight problems, illnesses, hospitalizations, more weight problems, more breastfeeding problems. Sometimes it’s very hard to see the glass as half full instead of half empty! The one thing that I am thankful for is that fact that Kian is a pretty happy little guy now and doing fairly well accept for his weight. I keep reminding myself that God never gives me more than I can handle but I have to honest that I am pretty close to my limit…I am just hoping that there will be some sort of light at the end of the tunnel soon.

Weight, A Tooth, Starting to Crawl, Stranger’s Wrath, and One Year at OW!

Stranger’s Wrath

This has been a pretty eventful week for us. The game that Jamie has been working on with Oddworld released on Tuesday (Best Buy said it would be in stores on Thursday) and to GREAT reviews! We are all very excited about the game and looking forward to seeing more and more about its success now that it’s released. Oddworld’s President, Loren Lanning has been on several shows on G4TV.com (which used to be Tech TV) talking about the game. One show was devoted to it that premiered last night called Cheats – so if you want to check it out I am sure they will play the show with Stranger’s Wrath again.

Happy Anniversary to Jameson!

Today is Jameson’s first anniversary of working at Oddworld! Congrats honey! I am so proud of all your hard work and efforts that you have contributed to the company! Oddworld even sent a company wide email to congratulate him – how nice :)

Kian has His First Tooth!

It finally popped out yesterday! He never had any drooling or real fussiness during the whole thing – he’s a trooper! You really won’t know he was teething unless you looked in his mouth or saw him gnawing on his finger. I will take a picture of it when I can – it sure it sharp!

Update on Kian's Weight

Kian gained 10 ounces in the last week! He now weighs 14lbs. 13 ounces. The Doctor was very pleased to say the least! We have to do weight checks on him every week for a while but so far it looks like he's still playing catch up from his hospitalization in November. So no tests yet and it looks like everything is going well with his weight.

Right now I am very concerned about my breast milk. I am taking Fenugreek and Blessed Thistle and I feel as though my milk is declining. I am borrowing a scale from my lactation consultant so I can see how much he’s getting and today after his nap he only got .6 of an ounce :( He had to work really hard to get that too. I am going to see if I can bump up the Blessed Thistle again and see if I can get more of a let down happening so he doesn’t have to work so hard for so little. He’s been having very good pee-pee diapers lately so I have just figured that he’s getting enough. I am going to have to work pretty hard at getting it up – I might even start doing some of those old fashioned oats oatmeal smoothies (yum – not!). I will have the scale until Friday morning so I will be using it until then – I am praying that things will go better. We would appreciate some prayers in that area as Kian won’t take a bottle or formula.

Kian has gained well!

Well, Kian is doing good :) His ear infection has cleared up and he gained 7 ounces in the last week! Dr. Bravo was VERY pleased to say the least! He asked me what exactly I was feeding him and I was able to tell him about Kian’s troubles breastfeeding – he won’t stay on very long during the day because he wants to be active and babble. He told me to do EXACTLY what I was doing this week and hopefully he will gain another 6 ounces at least. He said that we might even start him on whole milk earlier than a year just to help him bulk up – he said that Kian definitely not a typical kid. If not we might do some tests. Dr. Bravo was very happy to know that Kian can gain weight though. I guess since we saw him last week he talked to the doctor we had in the hospital to see what tests she ran to see if something might have been missed. It makes me feel good that we are in his care – he seems to be very concerned and wants to get to the bottom of this if there is a bottom. Right now I would like to ask everyone to continue prayers for Kian and keep him in their thoughts….that if there is something wrong that it would make itself known and if not that he would just gain well.

Funny thing is that Dr. Bravo looked in his ears and in his mouth (his teeth are about to poke through) and Kian just let him do whatever lol It’s so funny how easy going Kian is (for the most part). Which is such a drastic change from how he used to be!

Thanks to everyone for your prayers and thoughts. Keep them coming!

From Daddy's Blog :)

I was looking at Jamie's blog today and noticed a funny story I wanted to post here too. Here it is: Jamie tells it better than I do because he was there!

"It's Christmas Eve, and I'm at the grocery store with Sarah's Uncle Dave, and her Step Father Randy...

I'm standing behind them both in the check out lane, when a guy behind me tries to get Randy's attention to ask where he got his Brett Favre jersey that he's wearing.

I told the guy that he arrived from Wisconsin the day before, and it came with him.

The guy says he's been looking everywhere for one and cant' find one for less that $50. His Son wants one REALLY bad, and he's been unable to get one yet. (this is Christmas Eve)

He offers Randy $20 for the Jersey...to which he kind of smirks and say's it would cost more to replace it.

So after we are finished checking out, the guy says how about $40! Randy is tempted...but decides that he'd better not.

So we get just outside the doors, and the guy comes running up and offers $50 for it! Randy agrees, and the guy says he needs to go to the ATM. He leaves his groceries sitting on the ground near us...and takes off running.

After we've been standing there for a while, the guy comes flying back through the doors...and says he was afraid we'd left! There was a line at the atm.

Up until this point, i just thought it was a nice thing for Randy to do... but once we saw how uncontrollably happy this guy was about getting this jersey, it was awesome. He was pumping his fist in the air, and acting like a 10 year old. His son should have a good Christmas, and we have a story to tell :)"

When Randy came back to the house without it on it took a while for my Mom to realize that he didn't have his jearsey. She then told Randy she bought it on a clearance rack at Shopko (only found in WI) for like $15! hehe Oh well, at least this kid had a good Christmas :)

Little Update on Kian

Sleep...What's that?

Well, Kian is starting to sleep a bit better now that I think his antibiotics have started to help his ear infection. Jamie and I are really working on getting Kian to sleep better and we realized that he really won't sleep without me. Tonight we started having Jamie go in there with him most of the time when he cries and with each time he is crying for less time and falling asleep. Right now the two of them are asleep together :) How sweet :) Soon we will once again begin the transition from our bed and set up a plan for what we are going to do with Kian during night time stuff. For now this is the only change as we want him to get well and get lots of rest.

Getting that Weight Back Up

I am getting a bit anxious about going to see Dr. Bravo on Wednesday. I am hoping that Kian's weight it back up but I am still going to push for testing just to make sure that everything is ok with him. I have started giving Kian solids three times a day and he is starting to take a little bit of prune juice and water from a bottle - he loves that combo. And when I say a little bit I mean 1/2 ounce tops. I think it will be really funny when he's 15 years old and eating everything in the house for us to tell him how bad he was at keeping his weight on lol

Sad News - Our Friends are Moving :(

Our friends Steve and Lisa are moving next month to Seattle. Jamie works with Steve and they quickly became good friends. We have hung out with them a lot and they were even Kian's first visitors ever in the hospital. They also attended Kian's dedication and we plan to have Kian call them Uncle Steve and Aunt Lisa. We sure will miss them more than we can express. We are excited though that they are engaged! Steve proposed over the Christmas break :) They have a date set for October 2006 - so we all will be making a trip up there for the wedding :) Jamie will be a groomsman :) We are sad to see them go but we are also very excited about the opportunity that Steve has. We wish many blessings upon them! We love you guys!

Christmas, Colds, Size of Clothes, and lots of Worry

Christmas

Christmas was wonderful :) My parents flew in on the 23rd and we spent Christmas at my Uncle Dave and Aunt Lori’s place. It was a full house to say the least! On Christmas Eve my cousin Allison, her husband Scott and her daughter Camlyn came to celebrate. My Grandma and Grandpa Zuelzke were there too. We also brought Toby with us. We had to add on to the table this year for dinner!

Then we opened gifts on Christmas morning and it took about 3 hours! We open gifts one at a time so we can all see what everyone got. Kian had so many gifts that he had to open two every turn and he still was last to open gifts! hehe He sure enjoyed all of his new toys :)

Clothes

Kian is starting to wear his 6-9 month clothing finally! He’s kind of in that in-between stage right now where the 3-6 month stuff is too small and the 6-9 month stuff is just a big big – especially length wise. He is mainly wearing one piece outfits and pajamas right now in the larger size but I hope to see him in the other stuff real soon.

Colds

We all had colds this Christmas. Jamie got it first and then me and Kian got it. We are all still getting over them. Kian has taken the worst hit of all. He has been refusing a bottle altogether and it’s been a huge task for me to keep him hydrated – his diapers are still pretty dry. I called Dr. Bravo’s office today and asked about his cough and if there was reason to be concerned as he seemed to be wheezing between coughs. The nurse told me to feel on his chest when he wasn’t making noise or coughing and I did so she said he needed an appointment to make sure he didn’t have bronchitis or an infection in his lungs.

Dr. Bravo weighed Kian and he has lost almost and entire pound from the last time he was in. He also has an ear infection in his right ear. Dr. Bravo told me he was concerned about how many set backs he has had with his weight and that next week if he hasn’t gained well then he is going to run some tests to see if something might be wrong with Kian. Dr. Bravo said that if it were his son he would want tests run. I think that I might even just have him run the tests anyway for my peace of mind. If something is wrong with him I want to start treatment right away and if there isn’t then I know that he’s just a stubborn little guy. I sure hope he’s stubborn! We would appreciate your prayers for him!

Kian is such a happy guy that I never knew his ear was bothering him. I just knew he was a bit cranky and it might be from teething along with the cold. I never thought I would walk out of the Dr.’s office with script for an ear infection. I am so glad that I brought him though. We will go back to see Dr. Bravo next Wednesday for a follow-up and weight check which might result in some blood work – I am hoping to get blood work anyway and I thinking that Dr. Bravo will feel the same way.

Here is right before meeting Santa :)





Check out these photos of Kian with Santa - I thought he might start to cry but he didn't! hehe







Here is our cute guy in his Exersaucer near the Christmas tree :)





Mommy and Kian after we did our Family Photo for our Christmas letter - at least he's looking at the camera for once!

This has been the BEST day!

Today has been the best day! I did lock myself out of the house and the car on the day to Mom’s Group this morning. So Kian and I waited outside for Jamie to come and unlock the door for us. But thankfully that wouldn’t set the tone for the rest of the day :) Today was Jamie’s last day of work for the year (he has the rest of the year off!) He also got a bonus from the completion of the game and got a lot of positive feedback about how they think he’s doing. I am so proud of him!

THEN tonight was Oddworld’s Holiday Party. It was at the Madonna Inn. Priscilla (the lady I lived when I lived in SLO a few years ago) came and watched Kian. It was the first time that Jamie and I left the house without him! I was VERY nervous…more concerned about Priscilla having to endure his screaming! I guess he fell asleep about 10 mins after we left and did fairly well. He was a crank a lot of the time, but he did pretty well. Even though I was nervous I knew that Kian was in good hands :)

The party was great! Jamie and I had so much fun :) We had dinner, an open bar and after dinner there was gambling to win tickets to put toward winning items like a X-box, digital camera, DVD player to name a few. Before he started we were told to look under our chairs for envelopes and Jamie ended up winning an X-box game. Then Jamie and I played blackjack and Texas hold ‘em poker. I stayed at the same table all night – the dealer was super nice and helped me out a lot. It was so much fun :) We came out with A LOT of tickets and I ended up winning the digital camera!!! I really wanted it because I wanted to get an upgrade to the camera we have now but we can’t afford to do that. It’s an AMAZING camera that does a lot of stuff that I couldn’t even imagine! It is about the size of a credit card, takes video that has audio, and Jamie has read reviews about it that say that it takes professional looking photos! Jamie put all his tickets in the box to win the Nintendo DS (the new handheld game system) and didn’t win but the person who did heard he wanted it and gave it to him! This is something that they can barely keep in stores right now because it’s so wanted! The person who gave it to him will get some brownies from me when the office is open again!

All in all, it was an awesome day and an awesome night! We are so blessed :) And I am so happy to have Jamie home with us during the day. We can have some good quality time all together before the holidays :)

Christmas and Kian's New Tricks (or lack there of)

Christmas is Right Around the Corner!

Jamie and I bought a beautiful fake tree this year. It is so pretty! I sure do miss the smell of a fresh pine but I don’t miss the needles or the hives I get from the pokes of pine needles (ouch!) It was so neat to go through our ornaments and think about each one and when we got it. Right in the middle front hangs our “Parents to Be” ornament that someone gave us last year as a gift. It’s hard to imagine that I was pregnant at this time last year! In fact on December 22 of last year we found out that Kian was a boy and gave him a name :)

We are very excited for Kian’s first Christmas. We will travel down to my Aunt Lori and Uncle David’s place and on the 23rd my parents will fly in! Randy will be meeting Kian for the first time and I am very excited for that :) My grandparents will also make their way over from Arizona (they are snowbirds) for Christmas and they will see Kian for the first time too. It will be a pretty exciting time for all of us. Christmas Eve will be quite a busy time because not only will we have all the before mentioned people but we will also have my cousin Allison and her husband and one-year-old daughter, Camlyn joining us :) It will be a packed place! But we are looking forward to it!

Look What I Can Do, Mom!

Well, Kian has found out a new trick. He can make himself throw up anything food that I give him that he doesn’t like. He will gag until what he doesn’t like is out if his mouth and usually everything else I just fed him follows. At first I would just say, “No” in a panicked tone when he would start to gag but I figured out if I sing to him and or shake a toy at him it distracts him enough to keep his food down. I also found out that smaller bites and the first taste of food – no matter what it is – he will gag. He really needs everything I give him so it has been a frustrating week or two dealing with Kian and his new trick.

Kian’s Weight

Kian’s weight is on its way up! I weighed him today and he was up about 4 ounces from last week. I will still be weighing him every week just to make sure he’s doing well – we are going every other week to Dr. Bravo so he can monitor his weight too.

Rolling Over

Kian has discovered that if he wants a toy that’s out of reach he can roll from back to front to get it. He does know how to roll back over onto his back but for some reason he seems to have forgotten it over the last week! I have no idea how this happened or why but he will stay on his belly until he cries and cries. I try not to help him unless he cries a lot so he will try to do it on his own.

Gaining, A Christmas Tree, and Daddy's Blog

And the scales tip in Kian's Favor!
It's been a good week so far for Kian :) I took him to my lactation consultant and he was up to 13lbs 12 oz.! The week before I think he was at 12lb 14 oz. She also measured him and he's 25 inches long. Then on Wed. I weighted him at Dr. Bravo's office and they weighed him 8 days before at 13lbs. and his weight that day was 14lbs. 4oz! Dr. Bravo was very pleased :) He is the the 3% for weight and height but he seems to be making a curve on the growth charts now so that is the right growth for him. Little stinker is still in 1-2 sized diapers! lol

I don't think Kian is getting as much milk as he should. It's not a problem on my end, it's a problem because he wants to talk and be social. I get him to eat pretty well when he's super hungry or tired though so I try to catch him like that as often as possible. I am going to talk to Dr. Bravo on Monday about eating with Kian. Right now I am packing calories into him and I want to make sure that I have a healthy balance going on so I don't set him up to be overweight.

I will be going to a free breastfeeding clinic on Wednesday and weigh Kian again then. He will also have his 6 months immunizations done on Monday. He was sick when he should have had them - poor guy had his 6 month birthday in the hospital. It was very strange to be in the hospital at that time - the pediatric ward has double doors that separate them from the Mommy Baby ward - it was strange to think that 6 months ago to the day I was on the other side of the floor recovering from surgery and Jamie and I were trying to figure out how to care for Kian.

We have a Christmas Tree!
Also, other huge news is that Jamie's Mom sold the Christmas tree we had when we were living there so we had money to buy a very nice tree this year! We are so excited to put it up! This weekend we will do some decorating for Christmas :)

Daddy's Blog!
Jamie now has his own blog :) So if you want to read up on Daddy's perspective on things take a look :) http://www.jamesondurall.blogspot.com/

Photos of Kian - Including his Hospital Stay

We haven't had a chance to update our website with photos in a while, but I wanted to get some of them in my blog right away. Hopefully we will have photos up soon for viewing.

First, here's a photo of our little Packer Fan (shhh...don't tell Daddy hehe)


Here's Kian with Nurse Shelley. She cared for Kian during the day shift for almost the entire time he was in the hospital. She worked really hard to get a feeding plan down for Kian too :)


Here's an upclose shot of Kian with his feeding tube. I think he was the happiest sick kid in the entire hospital!


Here's another one of "Happy Man" with Daddy


Here's a photo of him sitting in his highchair ready for some cereal - this was before he was sick. His little head barely comes over the tray hehe


Here's one on Halloween. Kian was Spiderman :) I think he's trying to tell us that it's time for some trick or treating hehe It was hard to take photos of him because he kept wanting to play with the bag!

Pretty Gosh Darn Bad Seems Like Nothing Compared to This!

We got home Sunday, November 15 after being in the hospital for 9 days! Yep – that was 9 days of no going outside for Mom or Kian. Poor Kian had a stomach virus that just totally wiped him out. He was vomiting for an entire day and was very lethargic the next day which was also the same day that me and Jamie started puking ourselves. It was so bad that both of us ran to the bathroom in the peds office to throw up in the middle of telling the doctor what was going on. The doctor decided to admit us to the hospital because it was Friday and she was afraid that Kian would really get dehydrated. They started an IV on Kian so he wouldn’t need to eat but he could if he wanted to. Since I was sick my milk pretty much dried up – I couldn’t keep even two sips of Sprite down so it was good he had the IV in for a few days. Thankfully there was a bed in the room that they just let me and Kian sleep in together so I could rest and be with Kian. Co-sleeping helps milk production anyway so I didn’t mind :)

The next day I was able to keep food down and I started taking my herbs again for milk production (I had found out the day before Kian got sick that my milk supply had decreased by half due to some odd sucking Kian has). From all the vomiting I did, my milk was dried up anyway and needed a boost. In the mean time, they put an NG tube or a feeding tube down Kian’s nose that went right to his stomach so they could dump food into it. Kian was refusing a bottle – he was having an oral aversion to anything foreign in his mouth. Kian hated the tube…he was gagging on it at first and then started vomiting…the nurses slowed down how fast they were giving him the formula and the doctor told them to lower the amount. At first she had him getting 4.5 ounces when he hadn’t had any food in 3 days at all in his stomach and before that he was only used to 2 ounces anyway. For the next 5 days I tried not to pick him up or move him at all when he was eating to help him not throw up. It was so sad :( I would play with him or cuddle with him to go to sleep.

They ran tests on his poop to see what kind of virus he had but they all came up negative. He had x-rays to see if there were blockages and a radiology test to see how things were going through his digestive system. Everything came up fine. Part of his small intestine was inflamed from the virus and all the vomiting so that is why he continued to vomit. The last four days we were in the hospital Kian stopped vomiting and I started to breastfeed again and supplement what he didn’t get either with a syringe or through the feeding tube. I would weigh him before and after I would feed him so we would know exactly how much more to give him.

After 9 days of being there I think I know all the nurses names on the unit! We were so ready to go home. Kian has slowly been gaining weight. I think I have weighed him every day this week either at the doctors office or at my lactation consultant’s (LC) hehe

Last Tuesday I went to my LC and found out that Kian got 4.5 ounces from me! That is exactly what he needs :) She told me to stop force feeding him with the syringe and just get back to normal with him. I talked to the doctor yesterday and he said to also stop force feeding him. I was so glad as it took about an hour and a half to do all of that! Not fun for all of us.

Then on Friday I weighed Kian and he was back down to the weight he was when he left the hospital. My LC suggested mixing cereal with fruit because he won’t take the food with formula or just water…he just wants my milk. Since I had already given him sweet potatoes and he reacted well to them and liked them I decided to start giving him that mixed in with the cereal and he has eaten a lot more of that and I can actually sneak in some formula to make the calories higher.

This last week we have also been getting meals from some wonderful ladies at church. I would have no idea how I would eat otherwise. It’s so hard being so far away from family and being in need of help. Also, the moms from my Mom’s Group have been SO wonderful too – I honestly don’t know what we would do without these ladies. Jamie is still working a lot of hours right now. It’s been pretty exhausting taking care of Kian and myself to make sure my milk is doing good.

It sure was a rough 9 days for us. Especially because Jamie’s Mom, sister and aunt flew out here from Kentucky for a visit that has been planned for months. I felt so bad for being the germ Nazi, but I think that everyone understood my fears. Hopefully next visit they will be able to spend more time with Kian and he will be well.

Kian sure charmed all the nurses in the peds unit! Sometimes it was hard to believe that he was sick because he was so happy and talkative. It sure made those 9 days easier to bear with a child who was in good spirits.

This situation has really taught me a lot. It has taught me to really enjoy Kian. For a while there we weren’t sure what was wrong with him and part of me still wonders if he could have CF, which was something that doctors were going to look into if he didn’t gain weight in the hospital. It was amazing to see that in a matter of moments I wasn’t worried about how much Kian was sleeping and where or if he was rolling over or not from back to front – I was worried about him and the thought of losing him or some disease would be too much for me to take. I realize now that all the things that I think are petty now are just details. The most important thing is Kian – period. I am here for guidance, teaching and love – he will sleep through the night when he is ready, he will roll from back to front when he’s ready. Right now all he needs is my love and attention and the rest will all fall into place someday. I just feel so grateful to have Kian and such a wonderful husband.

I have heard people say that when you have a child your heart lives outside your body – my heart laid in that bed for those 9 days praying for recovery and my heart still is with him as I pray that he gains weight and remains healthy.

We took some photos of Kian while he was in the hospital for his baby book – I will post them as soon as Jamie has uploaded them.

From Bad to Worse to Pretty Gosh Darn Bad

The Bad

What a day yesterday was for me and Kian! From my last post as you know Kian hasn't been sleeping well and Jamie has been working a lot so stresses and lack of sleep have been taking their toll on all of us. Kian has become better with sleep though so at least that was going well.

The Worse

Yesterday afternoon we went to see our lactation consultant, Andrea Heron. I am still breastfeeding and hope to do so for at least until Kian's a year old. Lately the way he's sucking has been different - it's like he wants to put the whole breast in his mouth - so I thought that maybe my milk supply was down.

When I go to see Andrea I bring Kian ready to eat. Before I go into my appointment they weigh him naked and then I dress him and they weigh him with what clothes I wan to feed him in. Then I go in to see Andrea and after we are through with one breast she weighs him and sees how much food he’s getting. To make a long story short, Andrea said that Kian does not have a strong suck and since he doesn’t it has depleted my milk supply. He should have 4 ounces every feeding and he only gets about 2 from me. He was as happy as could be in the visit! It was odd because you would never know that he was still hungry or looking for more food!

So, right now I am working on getting my milk supply up. I am taking herbal supplements – 8 pills in all to swallow 3 times a day with meals – these herbs are known to increase milk supply. I am also using an SNS (Supplemental Nursing System) while I am feeding Kian. Here is what it looks like in use: http://images.google.com/images?q=tbn:4I8dlhQsRPEJ:http://maternaloutreach.com/Merchant2/graphics/00000001/snsfeeder.jpg I put formula or my milk in the bottle part and there are two small tubes come from it to the nipple and as Kian sucks he will be encouraged to keep sucking because he will be getting food which will encourage my milk to kick in more. I am also pumping after every time I feed him because he doesn’t empty my breasts and that is what has caused the depletion. After I pump I give him another two ounces of formula or breast milk to help fill his belly.

Andrea will see us again next Wednesday and she seems to think that my supply will be back up by then. I certainly hope so. I really want to continue breastfeeding – not only is it cheap it’s healthy for me and gives Kian great immunities against illnesses.

The Pretty Gosh Darn Bad

We just got back from the ER about a half hour ago. Kian has been throwing up since about midnight last night and threw up after every time I fed him. Finally at 5AM we decided to head to the ER being afraid of dehydration and that something serious could be wrong. So, we got dressed quickly and piled into my car to find that we had a flat tire as we left the carport. Luckily we can all still fit in Jamie’s truck – not comfortably but it’s doable.

We were in the ER for about 3 and a half hours. The Dr. assessed Kian and said he didn’t think he was dehydrated but that we could give him some Pedialite to help him out. Of course Kian vomited that up – twice. He was vomiting bile by that time. Poor guy :( He had X-rays and a test of his blood sugar since his was so low at birth they wanted to rule anything related to that. Poor Kian was so tired he was falling asleep in my arms without a swaddle or a pacifier which he almost always needs to go to sleep. The Dr. thought there might have been an obstruction or something else wrong with Kian, but he didn’t present any other signs it being something serious and he didn’t want to put Kian at risk doing something more invasive – Jamie and I agreed. He talked to our pediatrician and he said that he had seen a lot of kids lately who had symptoms just like Kian’s and that if it didn’t get better by this afternoon I needed to call him.

We are relieved that Kian doesn’t have anything serious wrong with him, but it sure makes trying to get my milk supply up pretty difficult. We are just praying he will be better soon.

Wow! It's been a while!

I can’t believe how long it’s been since I posted a blog entry! Things have been pretty crazy for all of us this entire week. Jamie hasn’t really been home before midnight much and has had to work Saturdays which leaves me to care for Kian without much help from him. It’s been tough especially about two weeks ago when he wouldn’t sleep for more than 20 minutes and the only way I could get him to go to sleep was to lay down with him in our bed. The last two nights he has actually slept! It has been so nice to have my evenings back to clean (well, that’s not be nice lol) and get laundry and other things done that I can’t during the day when I have him. Kian unfortunately doesn’t entertain himself for very long so the last two weeks having pretty much no time to do anything has been rather stressful. I used to think Kian didn’t sleep long enough when he would wake every 4 hours and now I am happy to have the two he is giving me! I guess you can see a blessing once it’s been taken away.

Kian’s first Babysitter

Kian was watched by his first babysitter yesterday! I went to get my haircut and vote and my friend Christine watched him. I was so grateful! Jamie hasn’t been home enough or know what will be happening with his schedule that I couldn’t make an appointment over the last two months! My friend Christine offered to watch him - she’s a stay at home mom to her 15 month old son, Jacob. Thanks Christine!

Photos from Sears :)

Here are some photos that we had taken at Sears last month. I wanted to share them with all of you becuase they are so cute! (Thanks Gina for scanning them in and working on them so they turned out clear :)














And here are some photos that my Mom sent to me from when I was about 3 - 4 months old. I was surprised to see how much Kian looks like me as a baby! I think he looks so much like Jamie, but I guess he's got a little of me in him too :)


If I didn't know any better, I would think that this was Kian! but he hasn't got up on his hands like that yet! Wow!


Thank God for digital cameras these days or Kian would have a lot of blank stares at the camera just like this one I had on my first New Years Eve :)


Whose smile do you think that looks like! :)

Lots of First since the last post!

Kian’s First Big Car Ride!

This past weekend we made the 3 hour and 15 minute drive to see my Aunt Lori, Uncle David and my cousin Maggie. We traveled at night (at the advice of a mom from Mom’s Group who made a car trip with her little one this way) and he slept the entire way in the car! I gave him a bath (like I do every night before bed) and got his p.j.s on and put him in the carseat and off we went :)

He did great at my Aunt’s house – although it was difficult to get him to sleep at night but then again it was a strange place, strange bed and everything. I think he did pretty well though :)

One thing that my Aunt said was that Kian was one of the best babies she has ever seen! It was hard to believe when she said that at first! Then she turned to Kian and said, “You’re making your mom a liar about you being a high needs baby!” hehe It was then that I realized that Kian has really come SO far. He is a totally different baby than what he was like a few months ago. I probably wouldn’t call him high needs anymore…he’s just a normal baby who just wants his Mommy a lot lol But I think that’s pretty typical behavior (although it would be nice if the kid let me put him down for more than a moment or two). I think that he’s come a long way. I just need to make sure I keep doing what I have been doing :) I have to say thank you my doula Kathy for all her help with Kian and her advice and to Dr. Sears who wrote a book that I have been using and defined Kian as high needs…it really helped me know what to do with him and how to help him.


Kian Knows His Name and has been making some fun sounds!

A few weeks ago Jamie came with me and Kian when I went to have my teeth cleaned. The whole office wanted to meet Kian as Jamie has had some dental work done recently and they were just dying to see him! As we were talking with the doctor and his assistant someone walked by and ask what his name was. I said, “Kian.” And Kian turned his head to look at me right after I said it! I thought that maybe it was a fluke but he seems to turn his head when I say his name sometimes. Someone also told me that they found on a baby website that babies can know their names at 5 months! So, I think Kian knows he’s Kian now :) Thank God I started using his name more instead of saying, Buddy, little man, sweet boy…and all those other things I like to call him :)

Kian has also been making some fun new sounds these last few weeks. He says “dadadadadada” “mamamamama” and now he screams and screeches but in a happy way hehe It’s pretty funny to be walking through the grocery store with a screeching baby but at least he’s happy! It has been worse :) At least people smile at us now in the store instead of trying to tell me what’s wrong with him.


Kian’s first time in the Nursery at Church!

Today I brought Kian to the nursery for the first time ever at church! He only lasted 15 minutes but it was a huge step for me! One of the ladies working the nursery that day (we rotate out people who work there every week and have a few who are paid) was in my bible study small group last year. She recognized me and was so happy to see Kian for the first time :) She said she would hold him the whole time he was there :) Anyway, she paged me to come and get Kian when he was getting upset (we have a neat little pager that vibrates when your child is upset so you know they need you). I talked to her a bit when I went to get Kian (of course he stopped crying the moment I took him) she has two daughters who are in high school and she was telling me how fast this time goes by. She said that she could remember when her little ones were in the nursery and it just seems like yesterday.

Teething Continued and the Earth Shakes!

The Teething Saga Continues :(

Kian is still teething…even though I am scared of his teeth coming because I am breastfeeding still I want those two little buggers to come in! hehe Today I had my weekly walk with Gina and her daughter Danielle. Afterwards I went to Walmart. Kian slept in the front carrier the whole time. He was really wiped out from the walk I think. When I got him to the car to put him in the car seat he started to cry and he didn’t stop the entire way home – which is about a 15-20 minute drive. My heart was breaking for him as I knew his teeth were bothering him. I have never felt so helpless! I just had to keep driving and trying to calm him with my voice while reaching back to put his binky back in his mouth – he would suck for a while and then he was back to screaming…that scream is a cry of pain :(

As I was driving I thought, all I can do is pray. So I started to pray that Kian would be soothed. That the pain would subside at least until I could hold him or give him Tylenol. It was so hard to listen to him scream – I actually had tears in my eyes for my poor little man. As I was driving and praying the thought popped into my mind that God must have felt something similar when Jesus was hanging on the cross. I know that what was happening with me and Kian was not even remotely on a scale as Jesus’ crucifixion, but I thought about how hard it was to see my own son in pain. Having a child really makes it all hit home – what God and even Mary had to watch when Jesus was on the cross. I cannot imagine the pain that Mary felt in her heart for her son.

Our First eARthQuAKe

Most of you probably know by now that we had an earthquake here on Tuesday, September 28th at 10:15AM. It was a 6.0 on the Richter scale. Jamie, Kian and I were all sitting in the waiting room of our doctor’s office when it happened. I actually felt dizzy and wondered why I felt so bad all of a sudden. It also felt like someone was banging on the back of my chair but it was against a wall so I thought I was just feeling things. Right before I experienced all those things a guy just suddenly ran out of the office! Jamie and I were talking about how funny that looked and wondered what was wrong with him! Then a lady behind the desk said, “Did you feel that?” I said, “I did!” It was then that I realized I wasn’t sick but that I had just experienced an earthquake! There was no damage at all where we live, nothing even moved off the walls or anything (which is good seeing there was pottery sitting above Jamie, Kian and me. God must have been watching out for us!

The funny thing is that Jamie never felt the earthquake even though he was sitting right next to me! hehe An hour or so later I met with a friend of mine for our weekly walk near the beach. I asked her if she thought it was big enough to be national and she said she didn’t think so. But when I got home from our walk and a trip to Walmart (the ride where Kian cried the whole way home) my mom had called and never even said hello she just said, “Are you guys ok?” It was then that I called my mother-in-law to make sure she knew we were alright. Then I got a call from my Aunt Lori who lives about 3.5 hours south of us congratulating me on going through my first earthquake! I think if threw was a greeting card for such an occasion, she probably would have sent it to me :) hehe She said that we are real Californians now that we have been through one :)

I am really glad that we got to me in one before a really big one hit. This way I can be prepared for where I need to go and what I need to look for to be safe in the event of an earthquake.

Speaking of that, there was an aftershock today (Thursday) at about noon that was 5.0! I didn’t feel it because I was walking up the stairs to the place where my Mom’s group was meeting. I didn’t feel it but Rebecca (the Mom who was hosting) said she felt it and told me to look at some small beads that were dangling off of a lamp across the room - they were swaying a bit from the movement.
Keep us in your thoughts and prayers as the news people are saying that they think a larger earthquake might hit in the next two weeks.

Back to the Grind for all of us!

We had a wonderful visit with Grandad and Nan this last week :) Kian did so wonderfully too considering that he is teething (I can see two little teeth trying to make their way out). We are looking forward to maybe seeing them again at the end of December :) We were so thankful they were able to come out and see Kian – especially because he’s so more interactive right now. Kian sure endured the visit with a lot of activity well!

Solids Update

After doing some research on starting solids, I have decided to delay starting Kian. I have read that starting it too early can cause allergies or digestive problems. Not to mention, I feel like Kian is watching my food just because he’s very curious about things now. He’s not mimicking me as I eat or wanting to put my food him his mouth. He’s more interested in colors and putting anything he can in his mouth :)

I am going to be watching how often he is eating though and seeing if he's hungry more often. I have read and heard that is one key sign that your baby is ready for solids. I surely don't want our little man to starve! Since all babies are different there is no reason for my to go by the amount of months he is (which it's suggested to wait until after 6 months) but to go by if I feel he's ready. Who knows, next week could be very different....we will just have to wait and see.

Teething!

Kian is cutting some teeth! You can see two little indentations in the center of his bottom gums. Dr. Bravo told us that he was teething – I noticed those bumps in his gums a few days before his appointment and Dr. Bravo just confirmed it. Kian is doing pretty well but it sure is hard to bear hearing him suddenly cry out in pain from being in a content state.

Paw Print :)

I picked up mine and Kian’s Paw Print yesterday! It is so cute! I will post a photo of it as soon as I can get one uploaded. It’s so precious! The print is my hand with Kian’s hand inside it and it says: Aug 2004 – Mommy and Kian. I can’t wait to show it off to those who come to visit!

I also got to see a Kathy again (our doula). She always comments on how much Kian looks like Jamie. It was so good to see her again. She is such an encouragement :)

This week

Well, we are back to our regular schedule this week. Mom’s group was on Monday, Tuesday Gina and I walked with our babies in the front carriers along the beach (that was wonderful!) and then sat on the beach and talked and played with our little ones, Thursday was Bible study (which Kian did wonderfully at! Luckily we met in the sanctuary where the cry room is so I got to go in there when he became a vocal and didn’t have to miss any of the message. Talk about a busy week! I am so blessed to be a SAHM (Stay At Home Mom), I would have it no other way. And I am so glad that there are a lot of things that I can do throughout the week with Kian to socialize him and keep me active as well.

Well, Kian is on one of his power naps after Bible study – so I think I might join him in a little R&R that us Mom’s get so little of :)

Grandad and Nan Have Arrived :)

Jamie's Dad (Rod) and Step-Mom (Nancy) arrived on Sunday, September 12th in the afternoon from Lexington, KY. We went to McLintock's for steaks soon after they got here. Kian did wonderfully especially because we were out about an hour or two past his bed time! He had several night wakings that night but I figured that was to be expected with a visit from people he is meeting for the first time and being out so late.

Monday, September 13th

Kian had a Dr.'s appointment with Dr. Bravo. Dr. Bravo said that Kian is doing very well! His weight was 11lbs. 12 oz. (although the nurse wrote that down wrong on the sheet we bring home with us - she wrote that he was 11lbs. 2oz.). I have calculated that the weight that he really is lies in the 10th percentile (the nurse marked the wrong one as being in the 5%). Dr. Bravo told us that he was not concerned at all because I am a short person and Kian just might be short as well. I sure hope he's not too short! Nancy works is a dietitian and works in the NICU at a hospital in Lexington said that he is definitely growing well according to her calculations as for weight he gains per day - and she used the 11lbs. 2oz. number. Having another person confirm it was encouraging :) Kian has chub on his legs and he's certainly not skin and bones so I feel confident in what the Dr. thinks as well - he called the weight to my attention so that I would not be alarmed. I might even give a call over to the office to have Kian reweighed to make sure that it's all correct in his charts.

We were given the green light to start solids if we think he's ready. I have really been watching for signs that he is interested in my food. He usually will look at it as I always bounce him on my knee as I eat (in public as least). I'm not too sure if he's very interested in it yet, but today he kind of made me feel like he really might be ready after he grabbed the container my hamburger was in and tried to put it in his mouth! I figure it doesn't hurt to try it out :)

After Kian's appointment we met up with Grandad and Nan and went to Splash Cafe for some clam chowder (they had chowder and I had a fish taco as I thought that the chowder might be too much dairy for Kian right now). Then we took a walk on the pier. Jamie had Kian in the frontcarrier for the first time. And Kian really liked it! He was facing out as Jamie walked. He really liked looking around :) It also gave my back a break until he was ready for a little nap...he will usually take a nap in it front facing me with a blanket over his head to keep out stimulus.

After our walk on Pismo Pier and around at the shops in town, we decided to go to Morro Bay and look around a bit. Boy was it cold there! The marine layer had come in! I was so glad that I had a sweatshirt and pants in Kian's diaper bag for him. Mommy had to buy a sweatshirt to keep warm! Kian did great as Grandad held him as we walked from place to place :) I was so glad that Kian did so well with someone else holding him. He gets better and better all the time!

There is an Aquarium in Morro Bay that has rescued sea lions and otters from the area. You pay $2 to go in and .50 for a bag of fish to throw to the animals. They were so cute! Kian got scared at the noise and splashing though :( I had to take him from Grandad to calm him down - I just brought him into the next room. Those sea lions and otters were so cute though :) Jamie and Nan finished feeding them and they did tricks for them! After that we had dinner in Morro Bay - we all had fish and chips and the fish was fresh fish that was probably caught and brought right into Morro Bay. Boy was that good!

Kian feel asleep on the way back home and woke up soon after I laid him in his crib. So I got him ready for bed (quickly as he was crying from how tired he was). He was out from about 8ish until 4AM! I was amazed that he slept that long without needing me to go in there to do anything for him! That was 8 hours! At 4 I brought him to bed with me to feed him and we both fell asleep. He slept so soundly he even missed his normal 8AM waking! Jamie and I got up to get ready for the day and Kian just slept a bit more.

Tuesday, Septeember 14th

We went to Hearst Castle today! That place is so amazing! We ended up spending the whole day there. We ate lunch when we arrived - a hamburger made of Hearst beef that is raised right there on the grounds - yum :) The tour was about 2 hours long! Kian did great! He took a little nap and at one point I had to get out a bottle that I had pumped for him to tide him over until we could get somewhere to feed him. He did so well and people commented on how he was a "good" baby :) It was nice to hear that for a change from people staring and telling me what was wrong with him.

Kian did have a melt down in the car as we were going to stop in a little town called Cambria for some dinner and shopping. We all thought it would be best to go back to our place and just order pizzas. So that's what we did :) We had Woodstock's Pizza and salad - yum :) Thankfully Kian took a short cat nap which was just long enough for me to be able to eat without him bouncing on my knee :)

Kian is doing so WELL with all the new stuff that is going on this week. I am so proud of him :) He sure does love spending time with Grandad and Nan :)

Kian has done very well these last few days. Grandad has held him a lot of the time and he has responded really well to that :) He actually slept for and 8 hour stretch last night and only woke up to eat and was completely out until about 9ish (when he is usually up at 8). He was wiped out from I think the shots and from all the different stuff we were doing yesterday. We went to Pismo to Splash Cafe and then went to Morro Bay to do some shopping and had some fresh fish :) Right now Jamie is giving them a tour of Oddworld and Kian is sleeping so I have a few moments to myself....wow is it nice :)

Kian's First Beach, First Actual Nap and First Poop on Tape hehe

Kian's First Time on the Beach

This week was SO hot! Tuesday was the hottest day of all and thank God me and Gina decided not to walk but to still get together and hang out at the beach. In San Luis Obispo the temp was record breaking at 104! Boy, I am glad we weren't home because we don't have air conditioning and we would have roasted! Anyway, me and Gina met up at Avila Beach, had some lunch and sat on a blanket on the beach for a few hours. It was probalby aobut 20 degrees cooler sitting on the beach! Kian was kind of cranky but almost as soon as we hit the beach he calmed down. We sat in the shade underneath the pier.

It’s amazing what being on the beach will do to you. The air smells so good and the sound of the waves breaking is amazing. I can’t wait until we can take Kian out next year and he can play in the sand :)

Here is a photo of Kian with a smile behind that binky :)


Here's Danielle sitting up (she's really sitting in a hole her mom dug in the sand to help her out. Isn't she cute! (thanks Gina, I sole the one of Danielle from your blog - I hope you don't mind! :)



Longer naps!

Well, yesterday I went to Bible study for hte first time - it starts at 9:15ish which is early for us. He did well during the worship, speaker and announcement times but when we went to our small groups he had a fit! (He's been having problems nursing in public which I don't know if it's me maybe feeling uncomfortable or if it's him feeling distracted...) Then after group ended (which I missed the entire group time) we all left for the day and of course he was smiley guy then lol So I called Jamie to see if he wanted to have lunch with us since our church is downtown and close to where he works. So I go to meet Jamie and we pick a place to eat. Kian started to fuss so I go him out of his stroller and as I was sitting down I bumped his leg on the table and he started crying. He wasn't hurt, I think it scared him. Anyway, we had to leave because he was so disturbing to everyone...immediately when the stroller started moving he was fine. So we sat on a bench and I ate part of my wrap as Jamie entertained Kian. Then I saw a melt down was on the way so I thought I better get moving again. (poor Jamie - I'm not sure if he will meet us for lunch again! lol) The whole way back to the car Kian wailed and the whole way home too. When I got home I was FINALLY able to get him to latch on and eat! After he ate he went down for a nap - a 3 HOUR nap! He is a 20 minute napper! I actually had to check on him to make sure that he was still alive! LOL I go SO much done when he went down (which is good because I had some cleaning to do before Jamie’s dad and step-mom arrive on Sunday :)

I wasn't sure if he was napping longer because I had taken him to a forgein place in the morning for a few hours (which he didn't respond to well). But this afternoon he napped for an hour (and only an hour thanks to a big dump truck across the street doing some work - I wonder if he would have slept longer if it weren't for that blasted truck! Anyway, I am amazed! Especially because it was very sudden!

First Poop Caught on Tape

Today Kian and I were having a good time laughing with one another. He was so giggly today! He was practically laughing at whatever I said! One thing that I reazlied that he laughs a lot at is if I try to call Allie by saying in a high pitched voice, “Kitty, Kitty, Kitty.” He giggles every time I say it! hehe

Anyway, I thought that it would be a good time to get some footage of him with our video camera. I had him sitting in his car seat as I made silly sounds and he giggled behind all the hiccups he was having :) Then all of a sudden his face seemed really concentrated and I said out loud, “Are you pooping?” (like he could answer me hehe) So I turned off the camera and check and sure enough he had! He’s usually a once a week pooper (yeah, that’s a HUGE diaper to change) and he had pooped just two days before! So I took him to his room and changed him and he just started giggling at me again! lol So I got the camera again and said how I had caught the poop in process on tape LOL I thought that was pretty funny :)

A Walk does a Crank Good :)

Kian was a bear today - he was so fussy...he was fed, changed, not cold or hot, he just woke up from a nap....I didn't know what else to do with him! So, I took him outside on our balcony and he was quietly looking at the trees outside. Then I had a great idea....I know that when I have a hard day with Kian I like to go for a walk and I feel much better. So, I walked up to Staples to do a few things for the warranty company and then got lunch at a place nearby to bring home. I had THREE people tell me how cute he was, how good natured he is and he had smiles for all of them :) There were two ladies at the restaurant that could not stop talking about how long his eyelashes are, how cute he was...and of course he was all smiles :) He is getting so much better :) We have been home for a short period of time now and he's enjoying his Leap Frog Gym as I type this....it's nice to have my arms free :)

Little Laughs and Parenting Style

Rolling Over Again
Kian rolled over again yesterday. TWICE! The first time he ever rolled it was to his right and yesterday both rolls were to his left! He looks like he might start rolling front to back as well! I guess we will have to wait and see...for now I am being so careful when I put him down - if I need to walk away I put him somewhere he won't hurt himself.

Little Laughter
Kian has been laughing a lot lately! It actually sends me into laughter to hear him laugh. He will laugh so much sometimes that he gets the hiccups! He is so cute :)

Kian Gets Better and Better All the Time...
I am amazed at the progress that Kian has been making over the last few months. I was thinking back today about how much he used to cry and how much he cries now. He still is pretty particular about things and scares easy but he doesn't cry nearly as much. He also has so many more happy periods. People are actually telling me now how cute he is! :) Before people would either make comments or not say anything at all besides ask his age...he's just a happy little man. He does have his moments but not near as much anymore. I feel like part of it is me taking him into different environments and helping him cope as well as being responsive to his cries.

Parenting Style
I actually discovered (kind of by accident) that some of the things I have been doing fall under a category of parenting call Attachment Parenting. Here is a description of AP I took from a website: "The term, "attachment parenting", was conceived by pediatrician William Sears and his wife Martha, to describe a highly responsive, attentive style of caring for a child. Attachment parenting promotes physical and emotional closeness between parent and child through what the Sears refer to as the "Baby B's." The Baby B's are bonding, breastfeeding, babywearing, bedsharing and boundary building."

"Attachment parenting advocates encourage parents to hold their baby often in the early sensitive weeks of life to foster bonding. Breastfeeding is promoted because it enhances the mother's natural instincts to respond to her baby through physical closeness, hormonal influences and promotion of attentiveness. Both babywearing, the practice of carrying the baby on the parents' body with an infant carrier or sling, and bedsharing, parents and babies sleeping in the same bed, provide additional opportunities for closeness. Boundary building is a discipline philosophy that entails responding to the genuine, age appropriate needs of the child and using gentle guidance. All of the Baby B's are aimed at promoting a trusting, intuitive relationship between parents and baby through the physical and emotional closeness that makes it easier to know and appropriately respond to the baby's needs. While some people might see the Baby B's as a set of rules they must follow, they are just recommended tools that can and should be individualized for each family and parenting situation."

If you would like to read more here is a link to that article: http://www.parentsplace.com/babies/behavior/articles/0,10335,166650_115486,00.html?arrivalSA=1&cobrandRef=0&arrival_freqCap=1&pba=adid=10506657

The great thing about AP is that there are no rules...bascially just going on your motherly instinct to care for your baby. We do all of the B's to a certain extent but only what we feel suits our family. I had actually been doing a lot of the things suggested already but had no idea there was a term for it. I actually feel like going on my instincts and doing AP has really helped Kian flourish.

Along with AP we have decided to not make Kian "cry it out" to go to sleep and have been doing things suggested in the book No-Cry Sleep Solution. It has been working! Tonight Kian went down without any crying and virutally no rocking! I am amazed at how quickly he is learning that he can sleep without me :) It actually worked so well that Kian only woke up once in the night on Monday! He slept for two stints of 5 hours each! I was so excited to hear him cooing Monday morning at 8AM - not waking up crying or anything but as happy as a lark :)

Pictures from Pregnancy

I have been wanting to get some photos of the last day of my pregnancy on the web. When I was in labor my friend Karma was here visiting us and she took some photos. I am still shocked as to how big I was then! Boy, do I look tired! I had been having contractions every hour for over a day at this point - both Jamie and I had no sleep because the contractions would wake me right out of sleep and he would help me as I labored through them. Here are those photos :) (Thanks Karma for emailing them to us :) The last one is of me and Karma - how special that she was here right before we left for the hospital :)

Kian Rolled Over!

Kian was having tummy time today on his tummy time mat. He was staring at the bright colors on the mat and was kinda wobbling to one side. I thought that he might be on his way to turning over on his back. After few more wobbles he was on his back! I couldn't believe it! I immediately called Jamie to tell him the news :) I am so glad that he rolled over - he actually hates tummy time so I was thinking it would roll over later than others. But he did it! Hopefully I will be able to catch him on camera sometime.

Kian's Eye Color

Kian's eye color seems to be changing. His eyes are now a grayish- blue. I am wondering if he's going to get the Kesler brown eyes. Guess we might find out soon!

Move to Crib, Mom's Class, Personality Update

Kian's Move to His Crib

Kian is moved into his room and slept in his crib for the first time last night. (Thanks to a little encouragement from Daddy, Mommy decided to give it a try.) I was worried he would get scared when he woke up in there - as he has once before - but he did great last night. Now if I can only get him back to sleeping straight through 6 hours again then I will be happy :) Right now he's sleeping for four hours then up again two hours later and then again two hours later. The two hour intervals is that he can't get himself back to sleep. I just go in there, reswaddle him and give him a pacifier and he's out. I have been thinking of finding a lovey for him (something that he will find comfort in the middle of the night and not need me to help him get back to sleep). I haven't chosen one yet, but I am definitely working on that one. I am also reading a book called the No-Cry Sleep Solution and once I feel like I have a handle on what Kian needs me to do to help him learn to sleep longer then I will be working with him more on it.

Cold Again?!?! Teething?!?!

Kian's voice turned horse again last night. I don't really know if he has a cold or if he's teething. I can't see anything white on his gums...but I guess it could be the start of the teeth moving. He seems to be pretty content for the most part. I guess we will have to wait and see what will happen :)

New Mommies Group

Kian and I are attending a new Mommies group on Monday afternoons. The one that we were taking with Kathy ended and some moms decided to continue on our own. I sure am glad that we did because it's so good to connect with other moms who have babies the same age.

At my last Mom's group with Kathy (who was our doula, child birth instructor and facilitator of my Mom's group) I got a photo of Kian and Kian since we didn't have one we would be able to show him (the only other photo we have of her is of me pushing - not something I will share with anyone but Jamie lol), but I wanted Kian to know what she looked like she she said so many wonderful things to him in the letter that she wrote for him after he was born.


Also, at the last group Kian and I had our hand prints made. Kathy has a lady who does the prints locally come in and do them for a group of moms who are interested. You could choose from his hand, foot, both hands and feet, one hand, one foot, or you could choose to have your hand print with his inside. We chose to have our prints done together (Jamie thought it was really neat too). I figured that it will be a time that I will remember for the rest of my life and I will be in awe when Kian is about 16 and his hand will completely swallow mine :) We will have the handprints back to us the last week of September and I will take a photo of it when we get it back.

The new class was held for the first time on Monday. The class is pretty much made up of moms that were in lamaze classes together. We lined up our babies on the couch and here's the outcome:


From left to right: Tiffany, Liliana, Kian, Alex, and Danielle

Notice whose the only one crying in the picture - I told the Mom's that it would only capture what he's like a lot of the time anyway hehe I think that being swished with all those other babies was something foreign to him and he didn't like it very much. My friend Gina (Danielle's Mom) is a pro at doing thing with photos and such on the computer and I jokingly replied to her email of this photo by saying she should Photoshop a happy smile onto Kian's face - she said she was up for the challenge and replied with this photo:

Pretty good for a fake smile, huh!?!?! hehe


Personality Update

Kian is getting better and better as the weeks go by. His personality is definitely a challenge - it's especially hard when we are in public and people have to poke their noses and say "oh, he's hungry" when he just ate before we left the house or "he's colicky" no he's not...he's been in this car seat for a half hour now and he's tired wouldn't you cry too - especially when you are tired... I can tell you from having a challenging child I will NEVER say anything to some strange mother about what is wrong with her child - although I might pat her on the back and tell her that it does get better and I am living proof lol

I have also been encouraged by some moms in my group this week. They told me about how much Kian has progressed into being more content and happy. The first time we were at Mom's group he cried the entire time - one mom even confessed today that she secretly hoped we wouldn't be at group because Kian cried so much (this is coming from a mom with what seems to be the easiest baby in the world - next to Danielle that is!). This mom also told me that she can see every week how Kian is getting better and better with things. It also helps that Kian has lots of big smiles for everyone when he is having a content period. But when he has his meltdowns - there's not return from the edge sometimes.

At my last Mom's group Kathy told me that her first born - her daughter was also a "high needs" baby and she was so bad that people thought her and her husband would never have another baby! (They had two more after her by the way.) Kathy told me she wished that the kinds of things that are out there now - techniques for calming and just knowing what to do with a child who have a difficult personality - were at her fingertips when she was dealing with her daughter. I feel blessed to have books and videos to consult in how to calm him and to know how to deal with them. Her daughter is now a wonderful woman who works with Focus on the Family and has a great relationship with her mom. But Kathy confessed that her daughter was high needs until she was about 5 years old - that was kind of discouraging but at least I know there is hope for Kian to be a wonderful person when he grows up.

The difficult thing about having a high needs child is that I really don't have anyone to connect with on that issue in our group. One mom even said that I am probably one of the few moms that actually get out with their babies when they are a high needs child. I honestly don't think I could handle just staying at home with a crying child all the time - and he needs to socialize as well. One thing that is difficult for me at moms group is that, some things that Mom's do with their babies I cannot do with Kian - like crying it out - I tried just letting him cry for 5 - 10 minutes and he was BALLISTIC. I have a VERY hard time calming him down. I have decided that I need to continue to follow what my heart is telling me to do - and I am so glad that Kathy has encouraged us to do that. She says that if your instincts as a mom are telling you that this is not right, then it probably isn't. Kian is such a different from the normal, run-of-the-mill babies that for me to do something that works for one mom might not work for us. I dream of the day that I can put Kian in a shopping cart without a meltdown - now I shop with him in the front carrier because he will fall asleep being close to me and from the movement.

Life with a high needs child is sure difficult...but God has given me the ability to view this as what is normal for Kian and I have to learn to help him cope and just deal with it. God made him who he is and he's a special guy who needs special attention. My friend Gina said that I should take Kian's temperament as a complement from God because He will never give us more than we can handle. That is so true that God doesn't give us more than we can handle and I guess I'm definitely blessed with a wonderful, beautiful baby boy who I love dearly. As for a compliment from God, I will have to have a talk with Him when and if we decide to do this again LOL

Kian's Personality and Update on His Cold

Kian's Supersensativity is Getting Better (Even Despite a Cold!)

I am loving being a Mommy and it gets better as time goes on :) As I have said in previous posts, Kian is what they call a high-needs baby. His personality or temperament is one that requires a lot more attention then other babies (believe me I have seen it in my mom's group how much more needy he is). After finding out he was a Supersenative baby who doesn't adjust well to new environments and scares easy (even just picking him up from the changing table without letting him know will scare him) has really helped me and Jamie learn how to help him out. One very encouraging thing that the leader of my mom's group told me was that her daughter was also a high-needs baby. She told me her daughter would scream so much that everyone thought that she would never have another baby! She also told me that she wishes she had the tools and knowledge that we have out there now to help babies cope with adjusting to life outside the womb along with their personality. She encouraged me also by telling me how wonderful her daughter is and how great of a relationship they have (her daughter is in her early 20's).

Kian's getting better and better everyday though. Yesterday was his first trip to the grocery without crying! And today we went out for a bit (had to pick up my rings from being resized) and I had him in the stroller for about a hour for shopping in the area and no crying again! He actually smiled the entire time we were out! I thought I had someone else's child with me! He usually gets upset in new situations but he was fine as long as he saw my face every once in a while and could play with the links-a-doos I attached to his car seat. The stroller part is amazing because he always cries on our walks and always has to be in the front carrier when I go grocery shopping or head to Walmart. I might just be able to keep him in his car seat when we go in the store (that would be very nice on Mommy's back).


Update on Kian's Cold

Kian does still have a cold :( The poor little guy didn't want me to put him down at all Saturday so Jamie and I decided that church wasn't a good idea. We spend most of the time in the cry room and I wouldn't have liked it if someone brought their sick child in the cry room so I thought it was best we stay home. I have brought him into the bathroom and sat him in his bouncer when I showered to help to clear out the congestion and that has really helped a lot. He sure does hate that bulb syringe! I think he might have nightmares about it when he's older! hehe

Kian has his first cold :(

Last night, at about 5ish, I realized that Kian could be sick. His voice sounded like he had a frog in his throat. I thought it would go away as the day went on. He didn't do much cooing yesterday but when he did later on I noticed that he still sounded froggy. It was too late to call the Dr. by then. He seemed to be fine other than a little more fussy than normal at times and has a bit of a cough. I did take his temperature and it was normal. I figured he would be fine until today.

So I called the Dr. today and they said that there wasn’t anything that they could do. That I could just give him Tylenol, make sure his nose is clear and bring him into a steamy shower if he gets stuffed up. She also asked if Kian was breastfed and I told her he was…she said that breastfed babies have great immunities and he should get over this fairly quickly, so that gave me a little more comfort – hopefully he will get over it soon. (especially before Tuesday – our walking day!).

The nurse also said that he could be TEETHING! Yep! She said that they can start teething between 2-4 months. I looked and felt for signs of teeth poking through and didn’t see any...he loves to suck and gnaw on his hand or grab mine and stick it in his mouth and bite and suck….but that’s kind of his normal behavior. I did give him some Tylenol and have been trying to keep up my patience with him and when he cries suddenly. I guess it doesn't help that he does have some gas today too (contributing to sudden cries that stop once he toots).

Kian is REALLY Growing!

It seems that Kian is just fitting into his 3-6 month clothing - well most of it. Some of it is still a little big on him. He's not a chunky baby and sometimes I think some of the clothes he has are made for chunks hehe I just started dressing him in all 3-6 month clothing this week! I was going to buy some more things for him but I think I might hold off. The only thing he needs is light fabric sleepers - it gets cold here at night and he kicks his covers off during the night a lot of times, but I also want to make sure he doesn't get too hot.

Also, I weighed him at the last Mommies Group that I was at (it's held in an area in my OB's office) so there is a scale there. I weighed myself with him and then without him. He weighs 11 lbs. 1 oz. as of Wednesday (I won't say how much Mommy weighed though although it was a pound less than last week :).

He's Growing So Much!

Kian's Moving - Well, to His Crib hehe
Jamie and I are starting to transition Kian to his crib. I put him down for naps in there so he gets used to waking up in a new place. We used to always put him down in the Pack 'N Play in the living room or in his bassinet next to our bed. He loves to look at the Noah's Ark bumper pad on his crib after he wakes up - so at least I know he will be entertained for a bit before he cries for me to come and get him :)

Anyway, earlier today I was looking at Kian's bassinet and it says that babies should only be in there until they are 15lbs or 3 months old - whichever comes first. Kian will be 3 months on Sunday. I have to admit that I kind of have been dragging my feet a bit in moving Kian into his room. I want him close to me so I can check in on him and make sure he's still breathing and it's also really easy to feed him at 4AM and then again at 6AM when he's hungry (I usually feed him laying down in bed a the 6AM feeding so he will go back to sleep with little effort.)

Just now I was feeding Kian before he goes down for what is hopefully his 6 hour sleep stretch (crosses fingers) and I was thinking about having to move him away from me. I was thinking about the day that Jamie put the bassinet together and how it sat waiting for him to come home from the hospital for several weeks before he was even born. I thought about him often while that bassinet laid empty - I couldn't wait until he would come home to fill it. As time has gone one he's been able to put both of his hands on the sides of the bassinet and he's almost the entire length of it now. He was so sleepy when we brought him home...Now he's so awake and alert. It's amazing how many changes have occurred in just the short 3 months that he has been here. He's already stole my heart!

Here are some comparative photos of Kian from when he was first born to now:




Last Mommies Group with Kathy
Tomorrow is our last Mommies Group with Kathy as the leader. We will then be graduating and moving to a group with other Mommies who have graduated. Our time with Kathy has been amazing, I have really looked forward to her insight every group and I know I am going to miss her. Kathy was also our doula. She will hold a special place in both mine and Jamie's hearts because of all the love and support she gave us throughout the labor and even before in our childbirth classes that she lead. She is truly an amazing woman!

What is kind of strange is that all the moms and babies that are coming in are brand new - one a few weeks ago was only 1o days old! Heck, I was pretty much just getting settled at home from my ordeal a the hospital at that point! Kian is the oldest one in class now so I am now the veteran Mommy - it's kinda strange but neat to hear concerns and questions that I too had when Kian was a little man. Now that I have been there, done that I can pass on some of my advice to these ladies :)

Little Ones Everywhere!!!!
It is unbelievable the amount of friends who are now expecting!

Two of my old EDGE Corps partners are having little ones in the next few months! Lindsay and her husband Greg are expecting their second baby, a girl, this month. Her name is Abigail Grace. Her brother is about 18 months so Lindsay will have her hands full! hehe Chris and his wife Leigh Anne are expecting a little boy in September. They haven't settled on a name yet but it doesn't really matter because he'll be called little Ruf anyway ;) (Chris' last name is Rufener.)

One of the girl that I met with at Cal Poly is expecting! She announced it last month! I was so excited for her. Ann and Wes Cooley will have little BC (Baby Cooley) sometime in December or January (I think).

There also will be a new little Inhabitant at Oddworld too! One of Jamie's co-workers is expecting in October. Kian and I had lunch with her the other day - she has also hired Kathy as her doula so of course we had to talk about that ;) Talk about a flood of memories coming back from being pregnant! She looked very cute with her little belly :)

Growth Spurt
Kian has hit another growth spurt. He seems to be right on time with them - he should have one around 12 weeks and he was 12 weeks on Saturday. Basically what a growth spurt means is that he eats more frequently - today he ate almost every hour! He was also really tired. He is actually sleeping right now (thank God! He's been so needy lately that I have barely had time to do anything but the basics around the house and for myself). I am hoping that the growth spurt doesn't last too long - thankfully I did all my shopping on Monday! Growth spurts can last for up to a week! Thank God it's only that long because he was up again every 3 hours last night (talk about a sleepy Mommy).